Today officially marks my two-year anniversary in Nashville, Tennessee. Part of me reads that sentence and can’t believe its been two years, and the other part of me can’t believe its ONLY been two years. Sometimes I wonder about the journey God has me on. Sometimes I feel like the Israelites heading for the Promised Land, for 40 years. All heading and never arriving. I can only imagine the complaining and whining that was heard during those 40 years, because I know the complaining and whining I hear coming from my camp. I just finished reading Michael Kelley’s post for today and it was weird reading the thoughts that were in my mind.
Looking back at my time in seminary, then my time at InQuest and now here with LifeWay, it has been a long journey. There have been ups and there have been downs. I have seen God do amazing things and I have seen myself whine and complain shortly after. I have seen God teach and use me in ways that seemed unthinkable and I’ve seen me put Him on the back burner and forge ahead on my own. One thing I do know for sure is that the days walking with Him are days I treasure, and forging ahead on my own never works. You’d think I would have learned that lesson well enough by now not to make the same bad choices, but it still happens.
I loved a line from Michael’s post today, “God is just as concerned about who we’re becoming as where we’re going.” Those are wise words I believe. Our journey can take us many directions, but one thing is certain, they should always be towards Him. That is the prayer I am praying right now for my life. I don’t want the times spent working alone anymore. I simply want to follow and move with Him. I don’t know what that means really, but I am trusting Him with that. I am simply desiring to focus on becoming more like Him and let Him worry about what’s ahead. I want to focus on time WITH Him. It has become very easy recently to allow other things to invade my life and eat up my time. It shouldn’t happen, but it does. When you aren’t constantly checking those areas in your life, it is amazing how quickly you can get off track. Well, the time has come to right the ship.
Where has your past two years taken you? What does your journey look like? More importantly, what do you look like?